Wednesday, April 01, 2009

I can't sleep and I am thinking

I am thinking about a board presentation I plan to give in May. I am thinking about sponsorship letters that need to go out for an event that is in Sept. I am thinking about driving my MIL to BWI in the morning. I am thinking that Chris and I will never agree on a new house to buy. I am thinking about how I volunteered to serve on the board of my Moms Club but am afraid it is going to be more work than I bargined for. I am thinking that I wish I was sleeping instead of typing on my blog. I am thinking that I miss my friend Heather and my friend Kim. I am thinking it is way too hard to make time to exercise.

... I am thinking that I am pretty lucky to be awake and to be thinking about such trivial things. How truly blessed am I to be thinking about being able to give back to my community, to get to stay home with my children, share time with my childrens' grandparents, and to have such wonderful friends that I care so much about...and to have my health and to be able to exercise. I am thinking how grateful I am!


-- Post From My iPhone

45 comments:

rubyiscoming said...

Oh my sweet and loving friend who kept naivete til the end. I can't believe you are gone and this is your last post, your last public message (aside from FB, of course). The sense of hope, love and a bit of fear shines through.

I miss you deeply.

Unknown said...

Francie,

I AM THINKING that you are an amazing person who will be missed terribly!

Amy Farrell said...

I never met you...you were a high school/holy family friend of my husband. I have spent the last 2 hours pouring over your blog, laughing, crying and wanting to reach out to you...for you are someone I would have been best friends with. I am heartbroken for your family and for our society. Today we lost an amazing mother, friend, wife, and woman. The world mourns for you and you will be forever missed.

Unknown said...

I think if everyone who reads her blog were to follow suit and donate $1 to her charity, she would probably like that.

Anonymous said...

I don't know you but am grateful for your blog. Reading it is my way of honoring you, your children, your family and your friends.

In what I've read, it sounds as if the world was a better place with you in it.

Go rest high, dear lady. You and your precious little ones.

Jr Deputy Accountant said...

This is absolutely amazing and makes the moment all much sadder. :(

I think Audrey is on to something...

Unknown said...

I can't sleep because I am mourning the terrible, tragic loss of this family I barely knew, only over the vast community of the internet. But I knew the name so well that it sent chills through me when I read the news article. One of the many emails I have stored from Francie had the link to this blog.

My heart goes out to all of the loved ones in this tragic circumstance. May you all find peace amongst the grief.

Petunia said...

You will live on through your blog. There just are no words. I am sorry?

Alyson and Ford said...

We are so sorry over the tragedy. What a horrible loss. We are sad!

Alyzabeth's Mommy

Kristin said...

May you be at peace with your children.

rubyiscoming said...

I can't sleep. I miss you so much. Your thoughtfullness, your reflections, your big heart. My mom keeps thinking of your big smile - larger than life.

I hope you are warm and safe somewhere.

I hope you have all three snuggle bunnies right next to you.

I hope you are at peace.

I still can't seem to breathe....

Just Another Blogger said...

And ye shall meet, and know, and remember and love them again.

Katie said...

I am so sorry....I pray you and your little ones play together peacefully in eternity....

Mari said...

Francie,

You were real; more real than most of us. You took advantage of life and made the most of it, and when others were complaining about not having time, you made time for all the opportunities and tiny moments to give back.

I hope for you and the babies an eternity of peace.

kylie8cake said...

I am deeply saddened to hear of this tragedy. Francie, we only knew of each other through the exchange of a few emails in which you kindly shared baby clothing with me. I came to your little yellow house and I remember the dog barking outside. I am just terribly sorry this happened to you and your family. My heart aches..I am angry, I am hurt, I am losing hope in humanity. I hope you are in a much better place than we are.

Moi The Fuss said...

To end with "how grateful I am" seems so amazing. All of your thoughts listed, your problems and through it all you focus on your blessings. What a wonderful message for us all. Your last statement here coupled with the tragedy of your last day with with us, truly put a new perspective on the pettiness of what were "big problems" in my life yesterday. I pray to remember your message; focusing on my blessings and friends and I thank you for it. I pray for peace to your family left here with us, and most especially that you and your children share the love and joy of Our Lord in heaven. God Bless you all!

Shannon said...

Truly touching...my sincere condolences to the family. Francie seems like she was an incredibly thoughtful and loving woman. I pray she and the children are at peace.

Tracey said...

I didn't know you, but my heart aches for the loss of you and your babies...

I light a candle in honor of you and your families life...

With much love and hugs,
Tracey Huguley

Crystal R said...

I never met you, we were on an email community together and I am touched deeply by this last, beautiful post. I know you and your family are someplace wonderful and full of JOY now. My heart goes out to your parents, friends and everyone whose lives you touched while they were blessed with your presence. May they always remember you with love and joy, and may their hearts heal with time and faith.

Dreamlandlog said...

Wow, what a post. I did not know you even though I am a Holy Family parishioner. Reading now your posts I wish I did know you. I will never understand the choices that people make to drive them to such terrible acts. You will be missed and I hope dearly that you and your beautiful children are now with the Lord and feeling no pain. God Bless you.

Stephanie said...

I am thinking you were a wonderful person, so full of life, so giving, such a great mother, reached out to so many people, were so ambitious. You were a great person and I know you and your babies are in heaven and at peace!

Caffeine Court said...

May God bless you. What a beautiful person. I know you are in heaven with your precious babies.

Your gratitude and positive attitude are truly inspiring.

~Phaedra~ said...

Your blog was so lovely and full of hope. My wish for you and your sweet family is that you are all together in peace and light. We should remember our sisters in womenhood and share our gifts of love, nurturing and strength for those in need.

The Chic Chauffeur said...

God Bless you and your family.

Unknown said...

Heaven now has you and your children as amazing angels. Your blog is beautiful and it saddens me that such beauty and life could be taken away in the manner that it was.

May God bless you, your children, your family and your friends.

Jan said...

Wow. I wish I had found your blog sooner. How very sad. I dont even know what to say. I hope your family is at peace.

Scarlet O'Kara said...

My prayers are with the ones who are left behind to try and make sense of everything. Heaven has opened her arms to welcome her newest angels...

Cris said...

Being from Middletown and having gone to school with your brother and sister, this has just been devastating to our community. Although I had never met you as an adult, I have just been blown away having read your blog and facebook. You obviously lived what you preached and I have never met anyone like that. You sure have left your mark on this world and I feel a very deep sense of sorrow for your family. May you forever run through the fields and valleys of paradise with your children.

Sha said...

This breaks my heart. I can't help but cry. You're such an amazing and beautiful person.. so gentle, full of life! You may no longer be with us..but you've given me and so many others a new perspective in life. You will always be remembered! May you rest in eternal peace with your beautiful children! The Lord shall grant you heaven no doubt!

Bargain Briana said...

To think this was your last post and the absence of not including your husband in the things you are grateful for is noticed. I wish I had known you.
I didn't know know but I pray you are at peace.

MaNiC MoMMy™ said...

I am sad that this wonderful woman and her children have lost their lives. I am sad for the desperation her husband must have felt. Things like this, and the death of Maddie from the Spohr family, and Matt Loeglin (sp)... these are the sad things about blogs, but also what brings us together. It is truly a sad case when someone feels so much sense of loss that something this tragic happens.

bluquilts said...

I never knew you and found your blog after reading about the great tragedy. May you and your children all be angels in Heaven. My heart goes out to your family and what they are going through now. Rest in pease and God Bless you all.

Liz At UTP said...

light guide your family where ever the next path leads

Anonymous said...

My condolences to all the family and friends of this family, particularly the grandparents. I took time to peruse this little blog, and I came upon the pictures of her beautiful children, the one with little Fiona with her grandpa and my heart just about burst for these poor people. This is so sad.

I just want you to know i am praying for you all.
Massapequa, NY
Dina Little

Hummingbirder said...

I'm so sorry your husband did this terrible deed. May God forgive him.
God bless you and those precious children of yours and may
God comfort all those affected by this tragedy.

cristiann said...

Chris, Francie, Chandler, Gavin and little Fiona, there was a wonderful tribute of your lives at the church yesterday. Today you are being laid to rest, never to be forgotten. May the five of you rest in peace.

SumGr8Rrwrd said...
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SumGr8Rrwrd said...

Hello.

I reached this blog via my friend's link on facebook. I'm from Baltimore, currently living in Texas. I prayed for you and your family when news broke here in Dallas. I know you only through death, but my heart broke all the same.


Today, when I put the faces to the names and read your final public post on blogger, I felt how our world is suffering without you part of it. I am someone who is very familiar with insomnia and it is often laden with much thinking. I was able to relate to your post. When I am unable to sleep, I make an effort to be thankful too.

I'm encouraged to keep practicing that and follow your example: to let my last words, composed or spoken, to be kind, encouraging, and full of love.

I am praying for comfort, through loving memories, for your family, friends, and colleagues.

Rest in Peace.

acmom said...

Re: Bargain Briana comment-Francie was grateful that she could stay home with her children, and she was grateful to her husband for that. Francie's blog is not a forum to post judgement.

eve said...

I only "knew" you from the mothering website. Your insights and kind words to others were always given so freely.
When I read of this awful tragedy I wondered about who you were, and said a prayer for each of you that had been taken. I was so deeply saddened to find that I did "know" you.
I know you and your sweet little ones are beyond the cares of this world, and for this I am happy.For those of us left here to wonder it is a heartbreaking story to hear.

The world has lost a lovely woman, and the beautiful children that would have graced this place.

May you dwell in peace.

My prayers to your family left without you and your darling children.

Anonymous said...

You were always on this cell phone typing away even late at night with Fiona sleeping next to you. I miss you and the kids deeply everyday. You will forever be my awesome Aunt Francie who I could goto with anything. I love you and miss you. May you rest in peace.

Melanie said...

I can't breath today, I miss you and I'm blessed to have shared a meaningful and wonderful friendship with you. Your laugh, smile, spirit and larger than life heart will live with me forever.

Until we meet again....

eve said...

not forgotten

Lisa said...

Oh sweet momma it's been five years . I heard the news from a hospital bed during my pregnancy ( slow amniotic fluid leak) our community was and is devastated . We honor and remember you and your babies still .. Rest in eternal peace with your babies ❤️ Pray for us

Lisa said...

Oh sweet momma it's been five years . I heard the news from a hospital bed during my pregnancy ( slow amniotic fluid leak) our community was and is devastated . We honor and remember you and your babies still .. Rest in eternal peace with your babies ❤️ Pray for us